Father!
Let me pride on you thinking about you for once.
When I strain to figure you out
Your hands dragging my mother
Catching her by hair come to mind.
And the stamp of your foot on my neck
Still stands like a tattoo.
My childy little hands
That pleaded you unknowingly
Still grip those childhood nightmares.
Father!
I just long to like you before I die.
When you flash in my memory
Even the dozy eyelids at midnight
Open with fright shedding deep slumber
Recalling your ebriated babble and bluster.
Your troubled life seeking after justice
Shivers me in my shoes.
My cheeks numbed with your slaps
Fail to convey the sense of tears rolling to the heart.
I yearn to wail heartily for you
You thought you could whip with your words for ever.
The leather you suppressed the siblings with
Would never give in.
But, the same hands and legs
Badly seek a support now and
Your soul craves for a touch of love and affection.
All of a sudden you expect
Your children discharge their filial piety,
And the wife to forget all her heart-aches
And condescend to serve.
Father!
I want to love you instinctively before I die.
True!
You pampered my brother
Buying him new kids wear.
And once in a while, say, for BHOGI
You bathed us three children.
True!
By icing your love with five-star chocolates
You converted my sis to your way.
But
You haven’t learnt
What a father be like.
He must give life to his children,
Be a splendid ornament to my mother,
And a paradigm of reassurance.
Father!
I want to talk proud of you before you die.
Father!
I want to reclaim you before I die.
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Translated by N.S.Murthy